Wednesday, March 10, 2010

My Lifetime Story Week 10

Back with the My Lifetime Story week 10 challenge - childhood friends or pets.  I decided to focus on my best friend from Middle School - Michelle - who died when we were in 7th grade from heart complications. This affected my life for so long, but I have finally come to the conclusion that Michelle is probably better off in heaven where she is healthy again.  There is hidden journaling beneath the lyrics to the song Wish You Were Here by Mark Harris.


   

Hidden Journaling:
I remember the morning of November 16th, 1981 like it was yesterday. It was a  bright, sunshiny November morning and there was frost on the ground. I had just gotten up to get ready for school when the phone rang...and my world changed forever.

In 5th grade, a new girl had moved to town, Michelle ******. She and I became friends fairly quickly since we were kind of on the outside of the cool kids club.  We went to the same church, we spent time at her house. I was always amazed because she had all these older sisters that I thought were so cool.  We would do overnights at her house and it was utter chaos with all those girls around.  When we got to Junion High new opportunities arrived from us and aside from just classes, we became student managers for the 7th & 8th grade girls basketball teams.  I remember after one tourney where we had taken first place, we stood in my Grandma Hanson's kitchen and sang "We Are The Champions" at the top of our lungs.

Michelle's life wasn't perfect though.  She was born with a heart condition and had to be gone for treatments sometimes.  In November of '81 she was going to the University of Minnesota hospital for some surgery. I didn't fully understand the situation, but she kept telling me she would be OK and I didn't worry about it.

That morning of November 16th when the phone rang, I answered it and Michelle's mom was on the other end.  She asked me to get my dad. I naturally asked how Michelle was doing and all Sharon said was please go get your dad.  Sharon and Dad taught sunday school together, so I assumed it was something to do with that. But when Dad got off the phone, he told me to go wake up my mom and then he sat me down and told me that Michelle had died overnight. I was in shock.  It couldn't be real.  She told me she would be fine. How could she be dead?

I dressed and went to school like normal and by the time I got there, everybody knew already and I got lots of hugs and special attention from teachers that day, but it was all kind of a blur for me from then until the funeral.  I remember that in detail, even down to the plaid skirt, blue ruffled shirt and clogs I wore.

After that, I had trouble making close friends. I was too afraid of losing them. I just couldn't go through that again and I couldn't trust people when they said they wouldn't leave. It affected me for years. But just this year, 2010, I am finally able to let it go and realize that Michelle had no way of knowing that it would turn out that way. And that I need to celebrate the fact that she is in heaven, healed and living the most happy life where she can sing and dance and run without worry. I like to image her up there hanging out with Dad and all my grandparents. I think they are all watching down on me and cheer me on every single day. And I know there will be a day when we will be together again and we can stand in Heaven like 7th grade girls and sing "We Are The Champions" again.


Thanks for reading.....see you next week!!

37 comments:

  1. so sorry you lost your best friend Cyndi! she sounds like an amazing girl. {{{HUGS}}} lovely tribute layout.

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  2. WOW. I am still wiping the tears from my eyes. I have had loss, but never that close. Obviously life altering. Truly beautiful layout. I am sure she know how you loved her.

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  3. 一沙一世界,一花一天堂,掌中握無限,剎那即永恆..............................

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  4. 安...辛苦了!祝福你在各個方面都愈來愈好!........................................

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  5. 人必須心懷希望,才會活的快樂,日子才過得充實,有意義,有朝氣,有信心。........................................

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  6. 幸福是人人都要,又怎麼可能都歸你所有?要知道這世界幸福本來就不多........................................

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  7. 天下沒有走不通的路,沒有克服不了的困難,沒有打不敗的敵人。........................................

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  8. 如果,人類也像鼠輩一般,花很多時間來吃飯和睡覺,一定會改善健康。 .............................................

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  9. 河水永遠是相同的,可是每一剎那又都是新的。........................

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  10. 噴泉的高度,不會超過它的源頭。一個人的事業也是如此,它的成就絕不會超過自己的信念。..................................................

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  11. What a brave lady you are to take on all these pages, such extensive journaling too. Good for you. Your story is sad but full of hope and peace.
    Bless you,
    JoyceAnn

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  12. 一個人的價值,應該看他貢獻了什麼,而不是他取得了什麼....................................................................

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  13. 向著星球長驅直進的人,反比踟躕在峽路上的人,更容易達到目的。............................................................

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  14. 最敏捷的,未必贏得競賽:最強大的,未必贏得戰爭:時間與機會才是主人................................................

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  15. 在莫非定律中有項笨蛋定律:「一個組織中的笨蛋,恆大於等於三分之二。」. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

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  16. 河水永遠是相同的,可是每一剎那又都是新的。........................................

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